我不想再这样下去。
I'm like fighting with my brain everyday. I wonder how do you see that but, yea. It's killing me.
So now I ask myself, would I rather hurt other people's feelings or keep it to myself? Made attempts to say it straight to the person, but when I open my mouth, nothing comes out.
Things makes me happy, but it doesn't last very long. I feel like making a phone call and talk through the night and probably cry my hearts out. Seems easy but who can I call?
I should be studying for Chinese, but I feel like putting my thoughts into words, then maybe I can feel a weeny bit better. There's something I can look forward to! Movie with Ongbear :)