There are times when you just really get disappointed with yourself right? I wasn't angry at all, I just wanted to walk around and be alone. I've been making the wrong choices, saying the wrong things, giving the wrong expressions, having the wrong mood at the wrong time and having a negative perspective at almost everything this week.

I wondered since when I started being so careful with my words and actions; because I'm afraid of hurting the people around me. I'm starting to get tired, I just feel like shouting out what's on my mind, even if it's something hurtful. That'll stop me from getting so stressed up trying to face them with a smile but in the end frowning and annoying everyone else. I'm tired, thinking about these little things everyday. I just feel like letting them out, but where? who?

Probably it's because i'm too tired, that's why I'm thinking so much. but thinking too much has always been inside me, always getting paranoid even over little things. As much as I hate it, I can't stop being paranoid.

So this is life.