I have this goal, when I get my very first paycheck when I grow up, I'll buy 2 airplane tickets. One for my cousin, one for my second pop.

You know how it feels when you miss someone that badly but you just can't meet them? They used to be your best friends but in an instance you lost them, for good or not.

Every night when I'm on my bed, I'm afraid to close my eyes and sleep. It's like what if I can never open them up once I close it?

If she knew what she said would hurt (whether it was meant to be a joke or not) why say it in the first place. Was there a need shout across the room saying that she looks down on me? I can't be like my brother, being the ever so neat person, so well loved by her, her favourite grandchild. I'm probably a trash compared to him. I can't be like my sister, a strong headed person, with perserverance, whether is it in a good or bad way. That's her charm, of course you love her for that. You even boasted about how both of them are great in their studies in front of 舅公 and telling him that I'm not as capable, I was even called stupid. I'm sorry I can't be as smart as them alright, I probably don't deserve to be your grandchild huh.

Time to cut my nails.
K gnight.